Om Shanti Shanti Shanti
The good news is no third surgery for me just yet. The bad news; there's no fixing my ankle. It is what it is. The ankle specialist says no surgery he can do will ever give me even the slightest improvement in my range of motion. In fact, he thinks it could make it worse by adding additional scar tissue to the already traumatized and severely scarred tissue, tendons, and capsular joint. He said he wished he had better news for me but there's no sugar coating reality. I appreciate his honesty.
For the first time the heartbreak over my physical limitations has turned into peace. Peace of knowing I am as physically healed from this accident (sans some acupuncture and supplements that may help the arthritis, pain, and swelling a bit) as my body will allow. No more wondering what the outcome will be; I am already there. My next step is to maintain and continue to strengthen what I have left and not forget all of the lessons learned.
That and to overcome my residual fears that still haunt me.
Just like everything else on this journey, I know that day will come when it's supposed to. Until then, I'll continue to live, write, hike, ride, and namaste my way through this crazy adventure.
For the first time the heartbreak over my physical limitations has turned into peace. Peace of knowing I am as physically healed from this accident (sans some acupuncture and supplements that may help the arthritis, pain, and swelling a bit) as my body will allow. No more wondering what the outcome will be; I am already there. My next step is to maintain and continue to strengthen what I have left and not forget all of the lessons learned.
That and to overcome my residual fears that still haunt me.
Just like everything else on this journey, I know that day will come when it's supposed to. Until then, I'll continue to live, write, hike, ride, and namaste my way through this crazy adventure.
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