Week Three & Inner Peace

Well, I made it almost through week three post-surgery! I have been feeling a tiny bit better each day, but still get very tired doing almost nothing. The constant pain has subsided quite a bit, and I only feel short periods of it a few times a day. In fact, my broken toe started to hurt again and I think it’s only because it hurts more than my stomach again! I can lay on my side and stomach with little pain, which has been more comfortable and allows me to get a full night’s sleep. 

The heavy brain fog is real though, which can last up to a month. My body is using all its energy to heal, not think, so when I am tired, I really notice it. It causes me to need to speak slower and really focus on my words and what I am doing. It’s so wild though, and has been a challenge for me since I am usually such a quick thinker and am a pro multitasker. It’s just another reason for me to take this time seriously and allow my body to heal so my brain doesn’t have to work on overtime. 

On the positive side, I’ve experienced a sense of inner peace that I’ve never truly felt as deep before. For the first time in a long time, I feel mostly at ease with myself and my thoughts. I don’t feel a pull to distract myself with busyness or avoid the discomfort. In the past, it would have been a challenge being alone with my thoughts all day without any distractions. But now, after all the years of inner work I’ve done, I find comfort in the being, in the quiet healing. It feels liberating— which is a core value for me. My Whoop even shows my stress levels have gone down, not up, which is amazing all things considering.

If any fear-based thoughts or negative emotions come up, I recognize them for what they are, just thoughts, and allow them to come and go. I don’t push them away or let them consume me. I acknowledge them, release them, and move forward.

The beauty of this inner peace is that it feels so natural, so grounded, and so authentic. I don’t need to force myself to feel anything; it’s a gentle and effortless state. Deep inner peace isn’t created by avoiding discomfort or fear—it’s created by learning to sit with them, understand them, and let them pass without allowing them to control my mind or my life.

Today I made it to the beach to eat my lunch from my car. It’s been challenging for me to be away from nature for so long, as I am normally in it every morning, so it was a real treat to feel the ocean air. ❤️